I have learned a lot of things about myself since becoming a Mom.
They’re not all good. But I’m going to be real honest here.
I consider myself to be a nice person, and I really do believe that most people who know me well would describe me that way. However, motherhood has shown me that I have another side. The controlling biatch side.
Now that Reese is almost a year old, I like to think that I have gotten this side of myself in check, but in the beginning it wasn’t pretty. Just ask Andrew.
I was made painstakingly aware of this side of myself when I viewed a video we took while giving Reese one of her first baths. Aside from telling Andrew what to do every step of the way (I continued to say “This is how I do it….”), the killer was when Reese appeared to crack a smile and Andrew commented, “Look! She’s smiling!” In the background I heard my annoying self say “She never smiles in the bath.”
What a B.
I might as well have said “I know more than everyone about babies, and smiling in the bath is absurd.”
Whether it was hormones or maternal instincts in overdrive, I was probably a little out of control bossy those first few weeks home with Reese.
However, slowly but surely I have worked on letting go and have come to terms with the fact that I do not do everything right. I understand that Reese won’t be scarred for life if she goes outside without a hat on and more importantly that Andrew and I are in this together and are BOTH first time parents who are equally clueless.
So the next time I find myself about to say “Wasn’t she in that outfit BEFORE her bath?” or “That’s not where that goes”, I will remember the sound of my annoying voice in the bath video, and I will shut it.
Love this picture of you two!!! And you are the NICEST and most WONDERFUL friend and mother in the whole world!!!
Aww, thanks friend!!!! You are the best